Mrs Groovy

New meds make me sick. Like taking poison. Will get used to it.

Husband’s car broke down. 100 degrees.

$450 and counting….

Mom wants me to go to my brothers for the 4th. I really dont want to. 1989 my Dad asked me to go to my brothers. I said no. He died 3 months later.

I made the mistake of telling her I didnt feel good because of new meds. She’s all up in my face now about getting out of the house. Please make her understand I do what I can and what I need.

And I leave the fucking house all the time!

Went to lunch with the inlaws after kids’ dentist appointments (rave reviews and no cavities) it was nice.

Husband’s birthday, Sunday will try to make it nice but not special. Threw away most of the cupcakes from father’s day. I know…. he’s not a cake guy. One bite was all he took.

Hope the car gets fixed soon and doesnt cost much more.

Have to go to the dr today. Not happy about it and wishes it didn’t have to happen. But I don’t think my meds are working for me anymore. I am going to bite the bullet and ask to switch up. Switching meds is a scary thought… the side effects, the weaning off one and going onto another is just an icky mess that I’d rather do without but after years of being on the same pill it just isnt working for me anymore. My good days are not even close to outweighing the bad days…..

We had my in-laws and my Mom over for father’s day. We also threw in my husband’s birthday. We all have a very pleasant time and my MIL and I have made plans for the kids, her and I to go to the local roller skating place sometime next week. I haven’t been skating in years so I hope I can still do it.

My inlaws will be coming over Thursday to help my husband put up this kickbutt new curved shower rod my Mom got my husband. My husband rarely does anything install wise without his Dad nearby. The kids also have dentist appointments and the inlaws wanted to go to lunch as well. So Thursday will be a busy day.

That’s about all I can come up with…

When I clean my house it means that I clean my house. When my husband cleans the house it means he tells children what to do while he helps them clean. Most of the time when he cleans it’ll be cluttered not dirty and it bothers him, so he’ll just start giving orders. It actually drives us all nuts, mostly the kids but when he’s telling me what to do I get real mad.

So tonight a soda got spilled on the floor and there were some clothes folded on the table… he says, “that’s it, we’re doing a clean.” He starts snapping his fingers at kids and they look at him and he begins his little ritual. The kids look at me and roll their eyes and I smile and walk away.

I’m sitting there plurking away and my son is in my room vacuuming… he looked really cute doing it too. I asked him if he liked vacuuming it and he kind of laughed (like I do) and said…. “uh… no not really.” You would have had to heard it for it to have been as funny as it was, but it made me laugh so hard. Sometimes I forget he is as old as he is because sometimes he still acts like a little boy… he’s growing up and I never gave him permission.

I’m going to do my very best to keep my post as positive as possible even though I’ve been struggling with the negative side of things. So here we go….

We went to a meet and greet for home school at the local Starbucks. We were able to meet several families but none of them had high school kids. There also weren’t any teachers or IDVA representatives. That was a big let down since it was promoted as such. There will be other opportunities to meet them so it’s all good.

The other day I wanted to lay down and take a nap when my son came running in to tell me the back yard was flooded. I thought he was making something up, but sure enough the backyard was flooded. Something was broken in the irrigation and water was spewing everywhere. I couldn’t get the water to shut off so I had to call the irrigation company and they sent someone out quickly. My father-in-law came over the next day to help me fix it. Lots and lots of muddy spots left from the creature digging in my yard, but I sprinkled them with grass seed so it worked out.

My in-laws all took us out to dinner for my husband’s birthday last month. They had wanted to do it sooner but we couldn’t before they left for vacation and they had just gotten back in town. It was a nice lunch and I think everyone enjoyed themselves. I usually never mind going out to eat with them, except for that one time we went to the Slaughter yard and had hamburgers. GAH!

I moved my room around today and it looks cool…. although I’m not totally content with it yet. I will finish it tomorrow and then I think I’ll move my living room around. I am not content with it, the funny thing is we are never out there. Even when we watch tv as a family we all come in our room. Our biggest tv is in the playroom (NOT MY IDEA) and the next biggest is in ours. and the living room has probably one of the smallest tvs. We do play WII in the living room because it has the most amount of space to move around in.

The kids and I went on a bike ride today. We hadn’t been on a ride for several days because it was so damn hot. Almost high 90’s and low 100’s for the past week or so. We have been in the pool almost every day though and my son and I are getting quite the tans, although my legs are still white. My daughter is just like me when I was younger and she’s white as milk.

So yeah, mostly everything is good. I’m not looking forward to school starting and I’ve pretty much just ignored the date in my mind. I was slightly annoyed to see the stupid school supplies at Target and again at Wal-mart. That’s just mean.

We had a most wonderful three day weekend. It was harder than heck to let them all go back to their daily lives without me. I so love having my family near me. My daughter and I made up several different jewelry pieces that we just might try to sell. It is very fun and I enjoy doing it with her.

We had lunch with Grandpa on Saturday since Grandma is out of town. It is always nice to get some one on one time with Grandpa. Sunday was spent in pjs and the only time we left was to go through drive through with three dogs and my son. That was crazy.

Sunday some friends stopped over with their super cute little 3 week old baby. I of course stole that baby the minute they walked into my house. My daughter was not too far behind me. She got to feed him and we looked at his tiny little toes and tiny little fingers.

Yesterday my husband had to go back to work but the kids and I still had the day off. Today my husband is supposed to have his boss and his boss’s boss to stop by and after they visit he is jetting back home to me. I hope they come early.

Nothing much else to write about. I’m physically ok on my meds now, the mental part is still a struggle but not too bad. It helps greatly that my husband is so in love with me and being so attentive to me. I like when he touches my face and tells me how beautiful I am (even if I don’t believe it) and I love when he sends me texts saying “I love you baby.” because I know how he hates to text.

There is so much I should be doing around the house here today…. I should mow my yard, I should go to the store, I should shampoo my carpet, I should move my living room around, I should…. sometimes I really hate that word.