Lost.

I’m lost. I don’t know what to do or who to be. I’m finding it difficult to write because I am numb. I have blocked off all my emotions, but occasionally they spill out. My normal tactic of staying busy isn’t working because I don’t have the gumption to do things. I’m scared to start projects or reach out for help because I either won’t finish them or there is no help to be had. I am beyond sad and really tired of me. I need guidance and a sounding board but there isn’t any.

You should do this or you should do that, doesn’t help because I need a hand to guide me through it. I want to give up but I’m not allowed to.

Just lost…