Too much

In the month of march we celebrated two birthdays, I had two loved ones tell me they wanted to die, I had one loved one beg me to let her die, I’ve been to the emergency room twice, the doctor too many times to count and a family member quit/lose their job and then lose health insurance, had a loved one have major surgery, had three loved ones get super sick and I’m tired, so very tired.

If I…

If I told you to go away, would you?

If I told you I didn’t want to be friends, would you believe me?

If I told you I couldn’t do this anymore, would you let me leave?

If I told you I couldn’t find strength in myself anymore, would you help me find it?

If I told you I couldn’t find happiness anymore, would you allow me to live in sorrow?

If I told you I wanted forgiveness would you forgive me?

If I told you I was unhappy, would you try to make me happy?

If I told you I was having bad thoughts, would you try to make me think of other thing?

If I told you I couldn’t stand on my own anymore, would you hold me up?

If I told you I didn’t love you anymore, would you walk away?

If I told you I wanted to die, would you let me?