Mrs Groovy

I went on Friday, I didnt update because there is nothing to tell really. I’ll know in a couple of weeks. Of course I was sick to my stomach for the entire week prior but mostly just tried to put it out of my mind. The guy was a jerk and I speculate he wasnt a fan of mine. He was incredulous that a high school drop out could now be home schooling their children but seems content once I told him it was done via computer. Was openly shocked when asked how long I had worked prior to being unable to work. He was not a nice man and did not convey any type of feelings at all. So, in a couple of weeks we shall know if our current income will remain the same or if it vanish. Not thinking about it much as there is nothing I can do now but wait and see.

My daughter had another dr appt and he handed us over to counselors (shrinks) so we will be finding one in the very near future. She was of course upset and not happy with having to share her stories with a stranger. However the dr has given up on medications working alone and has diagnosed her with severe depression. Breaks my heart. She was able to have a friend spend the night last night so she was in good spirits most of the week. I worry most that she is embracing her illness rather than fighting it. I know once I had a “name” for my issues they became my way out. I dont want to doubt her or her feelings but its hard enough to fight my own demons and now I’ll have to fight hers too. What on earth could they be? Have I failed? Well of course I have…. I’ve done nothing but fail that child since she was born.

The kids and I are going to my Mom’s tomorrow night for dinner and to help her make popcorn balls for their neighborhood bazzar. I’m going to take the movie Up and hope it doesnt make my Mom sad. I know, it’s silly to worry about that after all this time but it is “her” story. But you know all disney movies are good and they all live happily ever after….

Spring break is over and we’re trying to get ourselves back on track.The weather was complete shit the entire spring break minus one day, that we had appointments and such. Even that day was cold and windy but at least there was no rain. Sunday before going back was of course lovely out. Although the past two days have been just as bad, today has been hail, rain and just now thunder. Next year our Spring break will be planned and will include going out of town for no less than 3 days and 2 nights. I don’t care if we stay in B-town at some lame ass hotel we are getting away from this house. My secret personal goal is to be able to go to Disney next year during spring break. We’ll see how that pans out.

The kids and I are all really tired of school. Granted not half as tired as we would be if it were public school. My son and I can see on his school dashboard that we are almost done. As of today he’s got less than 19% of school left. We started out with over over 180 lessons in math and language and we’ve only got 30 or so left. It is so nice to be able to show him and myself how much progress we’ve made. This last week we started with multiplcation and division and his cursive is improving daily too. Imagine multiplication, division and cursive in 2nd damn grade. My daughter is getting ready to pick her electives for next year and it is kind of exciting to see what I get to learn along with her. She’s leaning towards video game design, web design and flash animation. I’m leaning towards the latter two but video game design would be cool too I guess.

We celebrated both kids birthdays. We gave in and bought my son a 360 xbox and my daughter got a DS with lots of gadgets and games to go with. I love the DS and within a week went and bought one for my son and I to share. So that was our extravigant income tax purchase this year. Along with paying off credit cards (Bah!). My kids each had their own birthday celebration with relatives instead of a joint one. (So much more to say on that but wont) My daughter had a couple of friends over to spend the night a couple days after hers. It was fun and I think they both enjoyed their birthday.

Husband’s job is the same old same old. Just glad at this point he has a job since so many don’t. I know they’ve cut his company and the amount of stores they have all across the US and Canada so we’ll just give thanks and try not to complain much about the frozen raises part.

Just can’t think of anything else….  almost sounds as if I were writing a letter to my brother. I should do that….

What my kids say about me

I asked these questions to my kids,
Ashlee – 15
Antone – 9

1. What is something mom always says to you?
Ashlee – I love you
Tony – Are you in the living room? (he always leaves the light on)

2. What makes mom happy?
Ashlee – chocolate
Antone – dogs

3. What makes mom sad?
Ashlee – When dad works late
Antone – When dad works late

4. How does your mom make you laugh?
Ashlee – When she talks about farts (glad the world got to see this answer)
Antone – when she makes fun of Kirby’s hair.

5. What was your mom like as a child?
Ashlee – interesting
Antone – cool

6. How old is your mom?
Ashlee – 35
Antone – 38

7. How tall is your mom?
Ashlee – short
Antone – 6ft

8. What is her favorite thing to do?
Ashlee – be with us kids.
Antone – play with duke.

9. What does your mom do when you’re not around?
Ashlee – nap
Antone – clean

10. If your mom becomes famous, what will it be for?
Ashlee – singing
Antone – getting lots of dogs.

11. What is your mom really good at?
Ashlee – being a mom
Antone – cleaning and being a mom

12. What is your mom not very good at?
Ashlee – being a jerk
Antone – video games

13. What does your mom do for her job?
Ashlee – ad work
Antone – clean

14. What is your mom’s favorite food?
Ashlee – chocolate
Antone – pizza

15. What makes you proud of your mom?
Ashlee – lots of stuff (brave, not lazy)
Antone – She’s nice and brave

16. If your mom were a cartoon character, who would she be?
Ashlee – jessica Rabbit
Antone -

17. What do you and your mom do together?
Ashlee – talk a lot and shop
Antone – play with the dogs

18. How are you and your mom the same?
Ashlee – long hair
Antone – both smart

19. How are you and your mom different?
Ashlee – she’s brave and I’m not.
Antone – mom doesnt play video games

20. How do you know your mom loves you?
Ashlee – She tells us all the time and takes care of us.
Antone – she helps us

21. Where is your mom’s favorite place to go?
Ashlee – home (hallmark)
Antone – Target (hallmark)

I copied this from Bittersweet, whom I’ve been reading for a long time and absolutely identify with, but have never even left one comment just because I’m so lame.

When I clean my house it means that I clean my house. When my husband cleans the house it means he tells children what to do while he helps them clean. Most of the time when he cleans it’ll be cluttered not dirty and it bothers him, so he’ll just start giving orders. It actually drives us all nuts, mostly the kids but when he’s telling me what to do I get real mad.

So tonight a soda got spilled on the floor and there were some clothes folded on the table… he says, “that’s it, we’re doing a clean.” He starts snapping his fingers at kids and they look at him and he begins his little ritual. The kids look at me and roll their eyes and I smile and walk away.

I’m sitting there plurking away and my son is in my room vacuuming… he looked really cute doing it too. I asked him if he liked vacuuming it and he kind of laughed (like I do) and said…. “uh… no not really.” You would have had to heard it for it to have been as funny as it was, but it made me laugh so hard. Sometimes I forget he is as old as he is because sometimes he still acts like a little boy… he’s growing up and I never gave him permission.

We got my daughter a new bike this year, so now all three of us have new bikes. We have gone on several bike rides but the first one was a killer. The second one was pretty harsh as well. We have a small hill we have to go up and it is murder on my thighs. We haven’t been on a bike ride for a few days because of the heat. Also because I had to take my son’s privileges away when he didn’t listen at a stop sign. Then he cried the entire way home because I was taking away his bike time. Let me tell you, that is probably the worst thing you can do to this Mom is to embarrass her in public with your bad behavior. He ended up with four days rather than the one because he just kept acting poorly.

But the heat, oh my gosh, it has been in the high 90s and a few days of over 100! One day last week was 106 and it was miserable outside. So needless to say we’ve been inside a lot or the kids have been in the pool. I’ve only ventured the pool once and then got right back out since it was way too cold for me.

I’m hoping I can make myself get out of bed earlier than I have been so I can get the yard mowed before it gets hot. With the pool and the trampoline in the back yard I sure have a lot less yard to mow and I sure like that. The extra weed whacking I have to do does not even it out in the least. The weed whacking is the part I hate most.

Otherwise, not much is going on. Mostly just chillin’, staying up late, sleeping in late, watching movies together, playing games online and off, swimming, going for bike rides, trying to stay cool and eating horrible foods. Sounds like summer to me.