New meds make me sick. Like taking poison. Will get used to it.
Husband’s car broke down. 100 degrees.
$450 and counting….
Mom wants me to go to my brothers for the 4th. I really dont want to. 1989 my Dad asked me to go to my brothers. I said no. He died 3 months later.
I made the mistake of telling her I didnt feel good because of new meds. She’s all up in my face now about getting out of the house. Please make her understand I do what I can and what I need.
And I leave the fucking house all the time!
Went to lunch with the inlaws after kids’ dentist appointments (rave reviews and no cavities) it was nice.
Husband’s birthday, Sunday will try to make it nice but not special. Threw away most of the cupcakes from father’s day. I know…. he’s not a cake guy. One bite was all he took.
Hope the car gets fixed soon and doesnt cost much more.
Have to go to the dr today. Not happy about it and wishes it didn’t have to happen. But I don’t think my meds are working for me anymore. I am going to bite the bullet and ask to switch up. Switching meds is a scary thought… the side effects, the weaning off one and going onto another is just an icky mess that I’d rather do without but after years of being on the same pill it just isnt working for me anymore. My good days are not even close to outweighing the bad days…..
We had my in-laws and my Mom over for father’s day. We also threw in my husband’s birthday. We all have a very pleasant time and my MIL and I have made plans for the kids, her and I to go to the local roller skating place sometime next week. I haven’t been skating in years so I hope I can still do it.
My inlaws will be coming over Thursday to help my husband put up this kickbutt new curved shower rod my Mom got my husband. My husband rarely does anything install wise without his Dad nearby. The kids also have dentist appointments and the inlaws wanted to go to lunch as well. So Thursday will be a busy day.
That’s about all I can come up with…
My son called me from outside, “momma momma…. the neighbors are fighting wanna come watch?” He knows me so well….
My daughter rarely jumps on the trampoline with my son and I anymore. I love the 30-60 minutes I get to spend outside giggling with just him.
Need to find something to do with just her… one on one, other than the random trip grocery shopping.
My daughter actually broke into her own money and bought Sims 3. She LOVES it.
I cut my son’s hair today. He cried like a girl. All I cut was the front so I could see his damn eyes. That last sentence made me sound old.
The inlaws and my Mom will be coming over this Sunday for a father’s Day/ my husband’s birthday BBQ.
I filled out the most awful packet of paperwork to start the review process for my SSA. Made me sick for the three days it was in my house. Its mailed now we just wait…. and wait….
My daughter is taking web design and flash animation next school year. I am so jacked to be able to follow along with her.
I’m getting real heavy compared to a few years ago. Its time to motive myself and get back to doing something, anything….
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June 3rd, 2009 Posted 1:02 am
I don’t write here anymore and I miss it a lot. I miss that I dont document all the many little things I wont remember next week. I have the memory of a fly (dont they only live 2 days anyway) I dont miss that I would dwell and get myself upset writing about things that hurt or annoy me.
I miss having a sounding board. I dont miss putting my personal crap out there. I miss having people “understand” me. I dont miss people not understanding me. I miss venting.
Mostly I miss remembering my life, my days, my time with my kids and husband. The silly things…
I miss the memories.
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May 19th, 2009 Posted 10:58 pm
